Summer is here and the living is easy, wait, no it's not, who wrote that?

Ok, so that is how the song goes, but it isn't necessarily how life works. Some days thoughts pile up on me and my mind races from one subject to the next at the speed of light.

It is funny if you sit down and start to think about something and your thoughts can lead you to a place so far away from where you started that you do not remember how you got there. That happens to me a lot. The human mind is an amazing thing.

So, what is going on in my life? Well, thank you for asking. ;-) My husband and I are trying to have a baby. 1st child for us. He doesn't seem too stressed out about it, of course he is a man, and the male part of conception is fun and easy. Women on the other hand have the hard part. The waiting, the tests, the disappointment. You can't explain this to a man, because they are just not built like we are. Men are simple in the fact that things are cut and dry with them. "Oh, we aren't pregnant, well we will just have to keep trying. It is a hard job (pun intended) but someones got to do it."

Women on the other hand (myself especially) worry themselves to death about things. If you don't get pregnant right away women start to doubt their bodies and their inherent ability to have children.

I blame all of this on the world. We have gotten so advanced that every single thing that can happen to a woman trying to get pregnant has been documented. Yes, it is great to be forewarned, but it is also very terrifying. Now we know exactly what can go wrong with pregnancy and also what can go wrong to prevent it. The problem is that there are so many possibilities out there that you really do not know which one could be holding up the pregnancy process or if it is even any of the ones that we know about.

I know, I know, most people will say just give it time. It will happen when it is supposed to happen. The problem with that little helpful piece of advice... You cannot make yourself not think things. Your brain is definitely a self contained organ. You start to worry and you tell yourself, hey don't sweat it, it will be ok. 5 seconds later your brain is saying, ok was that long enough? Can I worry now? See what I mean...terrifying.

Anyways, so for now I will be trying to be patient (even though that characteristic seems to have been left out of my genetic makeup) and not worrying too much. Hopefully I will be able to get pregnant soon and I won't have to go through what a lot of people do when they are trying to conceive.

Wish me luck! (and strength, patience, calm...) Ok, ok those may be too much to ask for.

Happy Summer!

Quote of the Day: "Kids, they're not easy. But there has to be some penalty for sex." Bill Maher.